Thank you for posting TreeintheWind. I understand what you are saying - i know how that tug-of-war feels. There is a good chance i am wrong but i get the sense now that it might be she developed strong feelings for me and that when another person, perhaps a person outside her close circle picked up on it or suggested something - she then panicked and overreacted - i know if this was the case she would never tell me as she is very shy when it comes to expressing anything close to her heart. I am probably way off there though, it's frustrating as i doubt ill ever know the answer.

I might of been rash and a bit harsh too but i told her that we should not talk as i couldn't accept how things were between us now. It's simply too much for me to handle. I urged her to see it from my perspective and left the door open if she ever wanted to open up but i know she won't though - sadly i am sure of it. I terribly miss the person i use to know.