I don't understand myself anymore. I just want to give up. I've been living with depression for as long as I can remember. I also have terrible anxiety. I got it all from my mother who suffers from the same thing. She is on medication and is doing fine. I am too but it's doing nothing. I feel so lost in a world that is so big. I feel like I am the only one that feels this way. All I want to do everyday is sit on the couch and cry but I can't cry. I have so many different emotions running through my head at every point in the day. I want to sleep all the time but I have issues sleeping. It's a never ending cycle. I feel like I have no one to talk to and of the few friends that I have who would want to listen to a miserable person all the time? I'm backing off of every social situation I have and just don't involve myself with other people. I've never been in a relationship because I don't feel that I'm good enough for anyone and who would want to deal with my issues anyways? I feel so trapped in this body. All I do is go to work everyday and I have to put on a fake face and pretend to be happy. I'm sick of being fake. I just want to be like everyone else...