only you know whether you should be questioning your diagnosis or not.. questioning whether a person has a physical or mental health issue that their treatment providers tell them they have is an individualized thing.....me I do not because I have full trust in my treatment providers. they have never steered me wrong and have never made any mistakes in treating my mental or physical health issues.

for some people what you posted/ think/do/what your symptoms are, is going to make sense and for others what you posted/ think/do/what your symptoms are isnt going to make sense. Again whether something makes sense is an individualized thing based on each persons own understanding of things.

because that may just be the way your depression is affecting you, or it could be normal for you or it could be any number of physical or mental health issues..the human brain is an amazing thing where no two people remember the same things even when they are perfectly healthy the human brain does not retain everything it takes in, the human brain only uses a percentage of its functions for storage of memories. it has other functions too that it must attend to like breathing and keeping your organs, nerves and muscles working...what dictates how much a person remembers isnt solely based on whether they have dissociation or depression or bipolar disorder or any other mental disorder, its also about their heredity/genes/ stress/ whether they are getting enough sleep/fluids/ nutrients/ their cultural background/whats important for their body senses to take in and retain.... so much goes into how and why a person remembers the way they do.

with me my memory gaps are because I have Multiple Sclerosis, bouts of mania, hypomania, depression, I dont always get enough sleep, I'm in a high stress type job, I just not too long ago gave birth so my body's chemicals were more used for growing and protecting babies not on remembering every single moment of my day so a big portion of the time during my pregnancy is a blur unless it pertains to my being pregnant, some medications also affected how and what I remember....gosh there are just so many things that affect my having the memory gaps that I have, including genetics, my cultural background, my past, my present, whats normal for me whats important to me....

the line in the sand is that only your treatment providers can tell you how and why you remember some things and dont remember others. therefore my suggestion is that if this continues to bother you, contact your treatment providers.. they can do extensive physical and mental health testing that will tell you the answers you seek.

as for what gives well only that treatment provider who stated the disorder does not exist can tell you what gives...

what I can tell you is that every location, religion, political group, culture, mental health provider holds their own belief about what does and doesnt exist or get treated for mental health and physical health issues, so in order for you to find out "what gives" you need to talk with those treatment providers that told you what ever they did about your mental and physical health issues and what mental disorders are where you are.

"help?"...

well that depends upon what kind of help you want and need. here we post about things we go through and then if someone else has gone through what we have they post back to let us know what they went through. we dont tell each other what to do, and we dont diagnose each others problems. we also share our knowledge of mental and physical health issues. some people here also thank each other and give each other virtual "hugs" other, thats all the help we can give.