Dear CheekyShanelle ,
After reading your post i could not quite make out what is the wrong that you have done ? and if i could not understand where at all you've done anything wrong i can confidently say most in the world would also think the same way . Now if you are feeling this in such a strong way you may not understand what i am saying completely . May be you made a few mistakes , but that is your right being born a human .
I pray and hope that you feel better soon .