My T asked me today if I am swimming in my unhappiness or if I'm trying to get out? I don't really know, I just know I feel depressed. My T seems to think I choose to be this way, to be depressed and unhappy, that I can't look for happiness and keep it, I throw it out the door because I know it will not last. But why would I choose to be unhappy and depressed? I don't think I'm knowingly choosing it, but now if feel terrible because my T thinks I choose unhappy when I always have happy to chose from.