Thanks for all the inputs....
Last night we had a long conversation starting at 7pm ending at 9:30!
He told me his kids are first and I'm coming last (before he was always telling me that I have to come first, because if we have a good relationship, then we can take care of the kids better)....Then later on when he cooled down, he changed his mind and he said he was angry to say that....
He said he's not going to bring them over again and frankly, I'm happy about it....Today is 5 months that we are together and it's too early for me to have all this drama....
Then when he cooled down, I talked to him nicely and I reminded him that it's my home and they have to go with my rules and I told him even if we move to a new place of ours, still it will be the same....
He tells me that I talked meanly to them and it's not true. He said why I told her daughter to turn off the game music because the music is annoying and repetitive.....WTF the whole day same sound in my head....
He was so irrational and overly protective towards his kids....Yes, I see a red flag here and I got backed up badly....I couldn't even make love to him in the morning and I excused myself....I won't reward him with sex now!
He took me out for a drink and he said sorry for making me sad but he was not sorry for his kids....
Then in the middle of night, I think I had a bad dream but I can't remember, he woke me up....He said I was shouting in the dream saying "Rich Rich....please don't....no....no...."....In the morning, he said he's sorry to hurt me....He told me how much he loves me.....I don't know but it doesn't feel the same....probably I need time....
Tonight, he has his kids and he asked me to join them for dinner....He said he will miss me and he wants to see me....I told him I'm not comfortable to see his kids now and I won't join them.....
I'm planning to go out dancing with my girlfriend and I know he won't like it but then too bad....He can't prison me!
I told him he has to respect me and trust me.....
I don't have kids, and I have no parenting right, so why should I put up with all these stuff while I could have had a better weekend!
I cried so much because I was hurt....I feel pain still but I don't want to put so much weigh on it....
I slow things down.....no more kids at my home....
We are in love and I have no doubt he loves me, but his kids and his issues are coming on our way.....
I know there is no perfect relationship.....and I have to see how I can deal with this or if I can even!
This is my plan from now on:
I'm going to make myself busy as when I was single and no kids around me now....and I have to stay strong!
If he wants me, then he will come up with a better solution.....
Thanks again for all your support here....