Oh, forgot to mention:
I lie quite consistently about my actual emotions. If someone knows something is up and they ask me about it... I'll go on and on and on about something that IS troubling me... but it sure as h*** ain't the big issue. And I'll lie to minimize my effect on others (both with ups and downs). I will VERY rarely be open and honest about how I'm truly feeling. I tend to lie about that to bring myself more into the "normal" zone.
Typical responses to the question of "so how have you been lately?"
"Oh, you know, I've been pretty busy with things." (aka my thoughts are probably all over the place and I probably don't even remember WHAT I've done with my time)
"Honestly? I'm pretty tired." (aka I'm either tired and doing EVERYTHING BUT SLEEPING and won't admit that I'm actually not tired despite the fact that I'm not sleeping.. or I'm tired because I am very severely depressed"
"Could be worse" (Yes, I could ACTUALLY be acting on the stupid thoughts in my head)
etc etc. haha.
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"I have a problem with low self-esteem. Which is really ridiculous when you consider how amazing I am.
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