Thanks for responding, gayleggg. It really helps to know I'm not alone, esp since I feel so alone in this country. I just want it to go away so I can enjoy this amazing experience. I think you're right. Its really important for me to recognize that others may not be so bad, and I think that I am thinking they are bad in a "reject you before you can reject me" type of way. My roommate is very sweet and one of the guys that I talked to said he was really sorry that happened to me. The world is just so scary. Being vulnerable in a new place alone while making yourself vulnerable just makes it so much scarier.