Im tired of trying to prove to everyone that Im depressed and that it effects every single day of my life. Im tired of trying to convince disability and even my own non supportive husband of how I feel and that my moods are extremely disruptive to all areas of my life including my ability to work, drive a car, and especially to interact with difficult people.
I dont get what people want, Ive been hospitalized twice and it didnt make a bit of diffrence to anyone, no visits, very few phone calls (none from spouse) thank god the place was equipped with laundry facilities or it wouldve been a very smelly week to boot. I know there are people in worse places than I am and I am sorry for that but my patience is wearing thin and I dont understand why you have to do something dramatic to get people to wake up and pay attention.