talking a lot about the mother in T .not sure what to do with all this . i went in today feeling like i didn't want to open my mouth.and then she asked about how things were going with the mother. i told her and we talked a lot about how i need to seperate from her and my guilt set... she isnt letting me check out at all these days and i dont know how good that is .she even told me today she can tell when i am doing it. she was kind of silly about it. and then she said "so tell me ware you went .
i am angry at the mother right now and i want her out of my head .i dont know how to do that .i never have .i have learned how to not react for the most part but she is in my head.the memories are in my head wont go away