herethennow, what happened happened. I know how hard it can be to resist when you have the urge to hurt yourself. Don't dwell on what you did; instead, be proud of how long you went without hurting youself, and make it a goal to not hurt yourself again for at least a while. And I'm glad to hear that about the volunteer work! Keep at it!

lindammarie, I'm not "supposed" to like/love you, but even if I was, it wouldn't be the reason that I do like you. You're such a good person, from what little I know about you, always giving hugs and trying to be helpful, online and off. I think you need a bit more of that from family and friends right now. Do you have someone you feel like you can just vent to and know that they won't judge you? We all need someone like that.

Anyway, another stable day, trying to raise my threshold around my sister. But then there were problems with the car, problems with family, problems with everything. I get by by saying it's a string of coincidences and consequences, rather than putting it down to bad luck or a curse or a misalignment of the stars.... But when it seems like everyone has a health problem or mental illness or financial problem or... whatever... you wonder why it has to hit those you know and love. Makes you start wondering if there really is a curse of sorts.