So my family that never gets along had a perfect day without me yesterday, my friend that I confided in doesnt want to talk to me right now. And really told me that if I think I cant to it alone then I should go to a counsellor. That sound like a goodbye to me. This hurts sooo much right now. Thought I was just starting to think clearly. I feel like my heart just got put in a vice. Why do I keep trying when I feel soooo bad all the time. God I dont wanna do this anymore. This hurts soo much.