Hey, VengerBoi, lighten up on yourself. I don't think you're doing it for "kicks" but have some "reason." I believe we "pick" our symptoms just as we orchestrate our dreams, they're the best for telling us about ourselves and/or helping us at the time. Did you ever play that "game" as a child as to whether you're rather be blind or deaf, lose an arm or a leg, etc.? It's not a lot different, I don't think; our bodies try to help us however they can, for as long as they can. I've added over 100 pounds to what I weighed when I was young, that too is SI but that's not the point of the weight, is it! Nor is your pushing yourself your "point." It's our safety valve.