Lately I have come up against some very challenging people and opinions.

I must say they have shook me up A LOT.

People used to see me as smart, I also self identified as smart
People saw me as having good logic, stripped from everything that confused people, I identified as having those skills
People saw me as creative, I've always felt creative, like that is the most important thing
People saw me at being great at language, and I thought OK, I am

Then.... recently

People don't see me as smart
They claim I am irrational and can't follow simple logic
That everything I write is really, really boring
That I shouldn't even talk about language, because I'm basically a child that knows nothing.

If I suck so much at those few things I thought I had, then what am I? Pretty much nothing.

I'm so scared that they are right and I don't have anything of what I thought I had. It is terrifying. Like the universe is doing a big evil laughter thing. Like You thought you were something.

NOW YOU KNOW.