It's sometimes like, my logic tells me one thing. Like "You can't do that to people", "A lot of people do care".

But it's not something I believe. Like I'm lying to myself. My logic is lying to me. Because that voice that calls me a failure and weak and unworthy is right. I can shut her up sometimes, but something happens. Something ALWAYS happens. And they don't STOP happening.

And then I feel like a whiner and a baby. I don't want help and I shouldn't need it.

Like "you're such a ****ing loser, how ****ing dare you, you worthless piece of ****ing ****. Just shut your mouth, and ****ing deal with it."

I really appreciate the responses guys. More than you know, really.