hi yash
losing someone we love can be traumatic but time will heal this wound. I know that doesn't help where you are at now. you just have to distract yourself with other things as time goes by the pain will lessen and you will find joy in your life again. as they say, when one door closes another one opens and you want to be ready when that other door opens. so if you don't have friends to talk to, find yourself a counselor to help you through your grief. until then, find things to distract you from your pain, a good book, funny movies, coloring, anything to get your mind off of him. hang in there. this will pass.