I finally talked about my ED with my T today. It's been creeping up slowly through the years, but has now gotten to the point that denial and attempted rationalization wasn't doing it, so I figured I might as well admit it and try to come to terms with it and get over it.

Since I'm mainly a restricter, and I probably won't be seeing T for about a month, she gave me homework...and that is to eat (or at least try to eat) 3 meals and 2 snacks a day, all proper serving sizes. I told her I would try, but I don't even know where to start. I mean, I've been skipping breakfast since I was about 13, so almost 10 years now, and currently, I average 1 small meal and 1 snack a day. For one, I don't really get hungry. I also feel guilty after eating, so it's not exactly something that I want to do.

So, any tips? I mean, honestly, even thinking about the task is extremely overwhelming and almost brings me to the point of tears. I can't imagine how hard doing it will actually be.