wants-love- i would agree with what your saying if it were anyone but me. i am not the kinda person who just all of a sudden likes/dislikes something. i have worked closly over the years with some very attractive women and even been good friends with some of them. but i never had feelings for them on any level. but with my wife's sister we just connected in a way i cant even put into words. it just doesnt feel like it could be fake.

my wife and i get along great we never fight or even argue about things. thats how close and alike that we are. we have one child togeather and i just cant have my son grow up without me involved in everything he does.

its the hardest thing in the world for me to express my emotions correctly. as i said i grew up on a farm in texas and communcation wasnt one of the things i learned. i am trying very hard now to understand what i have going on inside me. i cat figure it out. i love my wife so much, but then at the same time i keep having these feelings. i been dealing with this pain for 2 years.