You are not broken gaia67! I also can relate. When my father was in his death bed, I was the only sibling that wasn't crying. When he died, I didn't cried either. I only started crying after I reflected on all the things he has done for me.

I wanted to point out that everyone is made differently. Some people are more emotional than others, and some seems to have no emotions at all. I've seen people cry because someone else was crying. I've also seen people like myself who can't cry in the hospital even if I tried. Maybe it just takes a lot more to make people like me and you to shed a tear? Maybe.