Christians follow the teachings of Jesus. He hung out with all sorts and p***** people off all over the place. He did things that other Jews NEVER would have EVER done.. and this was like... 2000 years ago. So, were he to be walking here now, and were he to hear your stress and unhappiness, he'd give you a pat on the back and say 'It's all about the Love' --- well at least in my eyes. And to all the gay clergy I know. (and I know quite a few)
My daughter dated her first girl last year.. she was quite sure she was bi. But -and not to triviliaze- but on Tumblr etc, EVERYONe's bi these days, so we weren't quite sure if it was for real or just a phase. We supported it either way though. She enjoyed the kissing and the playing, but when it came to the romance part, it was guys for her and that's where she's at now.
Me, i've made out with lots of my female friends. Had a lot of fun too, and were i not now married, (or had a more open minded husband) I'd probably still do it. BUT it's men that i WANT.. like in that 'romance' sort of way. Not sure if any of this makes sense but point is.. ((HUGS)) its okay. Just be you and do NOT be ashamed of the feelings you were born with. As long as it is consentual and informed (and no animals or children are involved) its pretty cool.