PoetoftheRiver, you need to see a therapist or pdoc if you do not already have one. This would be to help assess the source(s) of your current psychological state.
The need for you to work with a mental health professional to develop the plan of therapeutic treatment with goals are required to maximize the best and most prudent way for your recovery.

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Psychological Tests and Quizzes
Post-traumatic Stress - Forums at Psych Central
Health Support - Forums at Psych Central
Dissociative Disorders - Forums at Psych Central
Anxiety, Panic and Phobias - Forums at Psych Central

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