So therefore your goal is to be part of an orchestra. A loser would not aspire to be that. To be part of an orchestra is a wonderful thing. Magical. Inspiring.

Doctors and trained technicians have to study for many many years. Now is the time for you to study and practice your art. Go and see a performance of a great orchestra and become entranced and encouraged. You are not at the finish line yet, by a long shot.

Write to people in the industry and get pointers from them. Do what ever you need to hone your art. Mourn your loss through music. Define your passion in music.

To be loved is something many people wish for. To approach men sometimes comes off as being desperate and they will run. Let love turn up when you least expect it.

No George this is not about men. Its is about Growlithing, growing into the person she needs to be. Blow your horn hun.