I was really stressed about coming into work today, but I don't think my coworker told anyone else about what happened. Things seem normal. I'm still really embarrassed that she saw me like that, but I'm extremely touched that she cared enough to say anything to me and offer support. I can't talk about everything with her though, because she's a coworker. And I don't see us hanging out outside of work. It was really nice of her to say she cared.

I've decided to give up on trying to make a friend to hang out with. It was stupid of me to think I might be able to do it. I just have to accept the overwhelming loneliness. It's not easy. I'm overhearing everyone's 4th of July plans...pool parties, picnics, BBQs, fireworks. Ugh. I'm going to be locked in my dark apartment watching tv.