most of the day i have a tendency to be alone and i think about things that i could have done, things i shouldn't have done, things others shouldn't have done to me and how i could have prevented it and everything like that. i also htink about why it's unfair how no one laughs when i do, why people seem to be bothered by my presence, how they don't smile back and all that stuff. I wish people could be more considerate. i just feel like people may not want to hear the same stuff over and over from me due to the following reasons: you're too negative, move on, you dwell on it too much, and the past cannot be changed. from my own perspective, i am not being negative. Just want to forget about my problems but first i have to address them head-on. I can't keep running away from the past. I can't escape from it, it won't do me any good in the long run.