Thank you for your replies and hugs! I appreciate both very much.

Sky, I too hope she feels better. When the office person called. to tell me the doc was cancelling I told her I was disappointed and I hoped she would feel better soon.

Simon thank you for reminding me to be proud of using new tools to cope. It was ultimately a good experience in that I was shown that the skills and ideas we have talked about do actually work, when applied!

Perna, I am going to assume she couldn't help but to cancel at the last minute. That's illness for you: inconvenient and unpredictable. Change will be easier for you as you learn to look at it closely and at your reaction closely too. Thank you for your kind words. I will discuss my reaction with her, but not because I think she did anything wrong.. just that I feel my reaction was inappropriate and over the top. I want to talk about it and examine it and see what else is there.. sometimes they key to the lock...

So, I had no session with her, but did have a lesson anyway. And it gave me a good reason to practice and increase the relaxation meditation that I enjoy. My reaction was extremely emotional... and yet I overcame it rather than succumbed to it.



ECHOES