Purple: Telling us here is great. I hope you find the courage to take the next step and tell someone who is a professional and in a position to help you!! I am hoping for the best for you!

Today I am pretty sure I'm dying of the heat. I dunked my cat in the bathtub yesterday to help him cool off. I'm essentially a zombie because it's too hot to do anything - which is really annoying because I actually ahve a lot of energy and WANT to be doing things but I hate hate hate being sweaty just standing still!

Last night I sorta flipped out on an ex of mine. We're friends, but it's mostly one-sided. I've always been his support that he's gone to, time and time again. But as soon as he's feeling good about life, he's right back out of mine. I don't know why I keep letting him back in and helping him - because he has never once supported me, aside from when I had OD'd when I was 15. He was good then. But since then? Never.

Stupid hot weather.

I messaged my friend A about the fact that I'm not going to her province to visit this summer. She was good about it, but I'm still rather paranoid about what she's actually thinking because it's hard to trust someone's word when you don't actually trust them. I am, however, excited to see my friends as I haven't seen them for over a year and they're most certainly my most stable friends. It's by far the best decision for me.

Pretty sure the heat is affecting my thought processes though. My thoughts are about as muggy as the temperature! lol