Hi there VB -- I am about the last person who has any insight to offer you about relationships. Endings are hard, IMHO.

You have reflected here some observations that don't add up to me -- you don't trust your gf, you haven't had sex in a long time, and she doesn't seem to want to even be next to you. Yet, you state that you would be "nothing" without her.

What makes her and this relationship so desirable? Is there anything left on which to build that bridge, that Pat suggests?

Or perhaps, are you remembering a relationship that used to be instead of one that is now.

I guess I'd add that it seems to me that all relationships go through heavy weather. Both people have to be commited to get through the storms. Or so it seems to me.