I was recently prescribed medication specifically for anxiety and panic attacks to add on to the antidepressants I take for MDD. I stopped taking everything lately. I'm not really sure how I feel about it honestly. I'm supposed to take them every day but they scare me a little bit, I know that sounds weird. I've only had them 2 times. The first was a large amount in the hospital in an IV and the second time was half of what I'm supposed to take daily yesterday during a severe panic attack.

I have had extremely adverse and scary reactions on every antidepressant I've taken, I think that's what has made me so overly cautious about anxiety medication and medicine in general. I think the idea of having them is nice to know, even if I'm a little afraid to take them, if something gets so severe where I can't stop it no matter what I do I'm glad there's something to help me now. I can usually always feel panic attacks coming on and take 10 minutes to myself to calm down, try to bring myself back to reality. If none of that works and my heart still feels like it's about to explode then I will take it. It's relieving to know there's something I know will help me if things ever get too out of control.