Hi lonely_girl88,

You seem to have a lot of problems. You should not percieve them as a big burden. Try to think about them individually.

Firstly, try to manage your depression. Talk to someone close or a therapist. Or look at different threads here or articles on other sites specific to your problem.

Then think about your studies. Maybe your style of studying is not working for you. Try to change the way you do things, like the way you read textbooks, the way you plan your day, etc. It does not always require effort to change. Look for SQ3R, Pareto Analysis, Pomodoro etc. on google. These are ways to study, you will find many of these.

It may be possible that one of problems may be linked to others. You feel sad and hopeless and then you don't prefer studying and slack-off. If you try to be busy you may not feel sad that many times. I am not telling you to study everytime. Get a novel or a book and read between study sessions. Draw something or pursue a hobby.

You should not lose hope. Don't expect that one day all your problems will disappear. You must continuously work on them. Try to read as much as you can about your problems, it helps a lot. Your problems may not suddenly end, but you will learn to manage them.

I am a student. It's hard to explain how i manage my problems here in a few words. I still have many problems but i've learned to manage them. I too feel sad often but i know the right places to look for inspiration.

As you said about cutting, i would recommend going to a therapist. It may be costly but it may help you a lot. It will be a good investment for the long run.

In the end I would say that you should not expect that your problems will suddenly end but you will have to learn the art of living by them.

Good Luck :-)