Well as far as I remember I can't get peace with myself I'm always demanding always angry hurting myself and my family and now I started hurting people I don't even know . I'm already full of rage I know what cause it but I don't care i want that rage. it make me feel strong powerful I can kick anyone on my way . I like people at first then I don't like them any more and simply walk away but I have 2 friends I don't want more than them I'm very loyal friend and helpful one. I love to help people and give the poor one the happiness they want. I want to help everyone to save the world to bring peace but I don't know how could this two feelings be in one person I feel there is a fight inside of me but the good always win this fight always there since childhood .... Now the rage is getting bigger and bigger and I can't hold it anymore and the weirdest thing ever I LIKE IT !! every second I hurt someone I loved it I feel good so good and keep replay it I don't hurt anyone I hurt who hurt me but double time even if he is one of my family I like to break them then I think with my logical side this is wrong something is wrong this is not me or maybe me I don't know anymore !!