I am so sick of people who've known me all my life telling me that I could get over my agoraphobia if I loved my kids enough. I'm not good enough because I can't go to see fireworks, or take them to a theme park, fair, or on any type of vacation. I take my meds & am waiting on a decision on my disability/ssi claim. They know I'm sick. Does it make them feel better to point out what my illness costs me? It IS all in my head & that's the problem. I try to function to a level of not completely batshit, but that isn't always an option. Friends should support you & they don't. Sick of being treated like a freak. Sick of being a freak.
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Burning mud in my eyes blinding me from the truth
If it's a shadow in me the dark is a tidal wave inside of you
You've been taking communion
Getting drunk on your antidote
I'll save a seat next to me down below
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