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Originally Posted by CheshireCatGrin
Last night I sorta flipped out on an ex of mine. We're friends, but it's mostly one-sided. I've always been his support that he's gone to, time and time again. But as soon as he's feeling good about life, he's right back out of mine. I don't know why I keep letting him back in and helping him - because he has never once supported me, aside from when I had OD'd when I was 15. He was good then. But since then? Never.
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I have this same issue a lot. I'm a hell of a grudge holder, but I'm sucker for people that are going through a hard time and need help. But whenever something like that happens I just end up feeling used.
I can also relate to hot weather disdain.
Today was our 4th of July "picnic" at work. I mean it was great to get free food and all, but I was WAY not in the mood to deal with a gigantic group of people today. My department is one thing. I don't mind them so much. But there must have been... 300 people... easily. I was SO happy when there was one table in the far back corner that was empty so our entire department could sit there. I staked out the corner spot and didn't say too much. And actually... I didn't eat too much either. Just couldn't. A combination of hot weather and I really just don't like people watching me eat.
Now I'm just dead. Being social today really took it out of me.
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