Thanks for caring so much. I too have a hard time crying. The last time was a few days ago when I was writing something about a dear friend. I can't remember the last time before that. Months or years I think. I think crying can be a good emotional release.

I'm not so much weighted with a decision as I am unsure of how things will work out. I don't do well without trusting people. Most of my life when people have betrayed my trust I became emotional distance and very protective of myself when dealing with them. With my wife I am at odds of doing that. It is hard for a marriage to work and be emotionally distant and it is hard to talk to her not knowing if I can fully trust her. I'm trying to work things out. Marriage counseling helps.