I am sorry that you are feeling so down that you feel that your life is not worth living and that no one really cares. You need to try and stop having such negative thoughts. I know that is easier said than done but you need to try and ride all these bad feelings like a wave. In the meantime please go and speak with someone about your problems who can offer you some advice and support. I have felt very low at times and I know what you mean by feeling suffocated by your emotions. Keep communicating on here about how you feel and you will see that there are people who do care. I care. Being able to chat to people like us will help but you really, really need to go and seek help instead of suffering with your emotions as you are. Take care