Yesterday I was talking about hiding the self harm from my husband and for some reason I was smiling(?!) and giggling(?!) when I was telling her.

She asked me why I was smiling so much about being deceitful? I have no idea why I was laughing (goodness knows I hate lying to my husband and don't find it funny, it's something that I am trying so hard to stop doing and it would break his heart if he knew)

She said I was regressing, I thought 17 years old but she said younger because of the games I was playing (like laughing/hiding things?) and turned quite cold towards me.

Can anyone decipher this psychobabble? Does anyone else laugh when talking about upsetting things (about themselves only) but not feel its funny inside? I wouldn't laugh if anyone told me they were s/h so why did I find it 'funny'?