I know just how you feel. I feel that way a lot too and it's embarrassing because depression or any mental health issue is serious and it makes me feel real crappy to even begin to think that ALL of this is a way for me to gain attention somehow. But you know what I sort have come to realize after looking back on past times where I have felt like maybe I am just trying to seek "attention?" That yes indeed I was seeking attention! But not because I wanted people to notice me but it was a cry for help. I made my depression public knowledge on Facebook, when I had an account, and to friends and such and I came to realize that yes I did put that stuff out there for attention but in a sense of crying for help and wanting someone to talk to. Someone who would understand or atleast try too or atleast just listen. It was my way of waving my hands in the air like hey I need someone over here. Someone anyone that will listen. I need help