Like I said in my other reply, watching tv or something like that is just one of the many examples. But it's just that my brain gets foggy and that no matter how badly I thought I wanted to do other stuff - I just can't.

And that foggyness happens a lot. It happened in T by me just 'zoning out' while we were having a talk. I just kinda disappear mentally. I can't explain.

I read about dissociation but thought I'd ask people that actually experience it. I know there's a scale on which people do it, from just normal daily drive to work to full blown personality split. I'm just trying to pinpoint what's going on with me. I just now realize I zone out a lot. And it does explain a lot of stuff from the past bunch of years. It would be nice to discuss this with people that have something alike going on to the same extend. Just: brain fog and mentally disappearing into wel.. nothingness. Habitually, without noticing it. And a gazillion times a day for no obvious reasons.

Oh well. It's okay if you all don't wanna talk about it. I just guess I'm glad I now have the words to describe what happens when I get into the weird tiredness without explanation. And when at so many other times I all at once am awake and able to use my mind. I just never understood how it can be such big differences. Like knowing you have a brain that works but then it shuts down on you constantly when you also KNOW FOR SURE you have the motivation to use it. It's been the most frustrating thing.

Rambling again.