So the first day went ok. But I just felt terrible. By the time I got home I just wanted to cry. I really wanted to just hide in bed away from the world but I had already arranged to see a friend. So I was frustrated and upset and turned into a ***** to my poor bf who was just trying to make me feel better.

Later he assured me I'm not a burden, that I can tell him anything, he'd rather I told him how I feel and want to do than actually do anything.... He wants to support me through everything and just be there for me.

I wish that made a difference to how I feel.