I'm sorry to hear this, Rect0pathic. It seems like such an important area to explore, and I wish your T was more empathetic and curious about it. Maybe you have not yet reached the point where you want or need to cry? Sounds like your T is being a little judgmental about your reactions and defense mechanisms... that's just my interpretation here, of course. I know you've been seeing your T for a while and I am sure she has been helpful. But this seems to be a slight stumbling block.