(((((guys)))))) thanks so much for your input and ideas.
I don't feel confortable about it, because I'm working on liking myself, but I haven't got to that point yet, so, I feel like most of the time I do stupid things.
My conversations aren't about what I'm doing at the moment; usually they are about a specific situation that involves other people in my life, and while I know I'm alone and i don't see anybody else with me, it is not like I'm carry on a conversation wiht just myself, it almost looks like I'm talking to an "imaginary friend" (just to give it a name) That is why it really bothers me.
Thanks you so much for your understanding, it is so hard, and you guys are the only ppl I know can truly know how it feels.
Angie, love ya too hon~