Just a quick update. Today I phoned up again and was told by reception she wasn't in. I was asked if I wanted to leave a message and yet again I obliged, even though I'm aware she most likely won't get back to me.

One positive is that I DO have an appointment for a medication review that's been planned for months on the 8th July with my consultant psych. I'll probably tell her about the shortcomings I've been experiencing and see what she has to say. Even though its an appointment, it's not really with the right person - sure, my meds do need adjusting, but she can't help with disability benefit like she can, nor can she deal with getting me referred to a new therapist.

Feeling a little bit better now I know I have that appointment coming, but living off £60 a week for food; cigarettes; phone bill; credit card bill and my medication is further affecting my mood. It's still probably going to be a long while until I get benefits so the debt is building up while I'm having to live off credit just to eat. Psychiatrist once again cannot help with that, only my social worker can, if I ever get to see her.

For god sake, when I was discharged from psych, it was on the condition I attended an appointment at least weekly. Right now I'm seeing one person a month, if that.

Sorry but the services are so full of crap. When I was having my discharge meeting, my care plan stated I'd have this and that support, my mom would have this and that support...and none of it has been stuck to. The urges to do serious damage to myself is getting worse.

What a mess!
RB.