It's almost 5 and I'm just now getting around to "lunch" I guess since I didn't eat anything during normal lunch hours and it's not dinner...and I'm having a hard time with it. Like really hard. I've just conditioned my body to the point that eve if I do feel hungry which is rare, I ignore it and then it goes away.

I guess I didn't realize just how hard this was going to be. I've seen it from the outside with one of my best friends who is now a recovered anorexic...but going through it yourself...it's so different. This is the first of many challenges I know I'm going to have to face, and even though I want to rid myself of Ed, there's just that security blanket feeling of it.