I just want to cut have not self harmed since the end of april expect using a pen cap and scratching the skin off of two fingers no cutting now I want to get a blade and cut my private area I know this sounds sick but Iam a very sick person for wanting to do this live with mother so will not do it but I have a feeling I will give in Iam so weak and a idiot luckily it is so hot here I will not walk to the store to get blades was in the store earilier but did not buy them the urge has just come over me just like that