I'm afraid to contact him because I can't deal with rejection—it'll cause me to start self-harming again, if not something worse. I just wish I could get rid of the feelings that I never should have had in the first place. I was never going to like anyone again, then I started to get to know him. But he switched majors, and at first we were going to stay in contact. And we did for a little while. Then I sent a text and he didn't respond and I was afraid to send a second one in case that was the wrong thing to do. He never talked to me again, so doesn't that mean he doesn't want to talk to me?