I have surrounded myself in lies since I was young when I tried to tell my parents something was wrong -depression-. I made a mask of lies I could hide behind. It has worked well for a long time, but the last few years depression has become severe and my wife is getting glimpses behind the mask. She can see something is being hidden and jumping to the wrong conclusions. I casually brought up the subject of depression and learned that she has no tolerance for something she views as "not a real problem". Things are getting strained and I see this "I feel like ****, I am not trusted, and I'm pretty useless." in the mirror every day.