its the 4th of july, i feel really pathetic by myself. i am in a new state and i dont know anyone, nobody invited me to watch fireworks with them or anything. the nearest place that i can get to myself i have to take a taxi and it costs about 30 to get there and another 30 to get back. and by now actually the fireworks are almost finished, so i didnt do anything today. i stayed home and hoped that nobody saw that im home.

i would like this holiday and many other holidays if i actually had someone to share it with. otherwise it feels meaningless. like even if i had gone to watch fireworks myself it would just make me feel pathetic. so i decided to do nothing today just be on the internet.

anyone else feel this way?