I know what it's like to fully realize how much bs BMI is and yet... feel obsessively under its influence :/ so I extend my warm regard to you.

That being said, I think the "looked I was starving" is a thought you should hold onto. it didn't really hit me how much wrong following a BMI is until one day I glanced at myself in the mirror and realized I can see all my ribs and arm muscles... even tho my BMI says im in "perfect" zone. your own body is a better indicator of your health than a random chart made by a few scientists who generalize data over many, many, vastly different people, missing out on outliers, important lifestyle differences and genetics.