Hello there :]! I haven't gotten on PC in like a year or two. I moved from Long Island and to Georgia. It was stressful since I REALLY didn't know anyone here. Now I began to get bullied because of my "Proper" Accent as they call is down here. Not something I could help with so I was trying to keep my mouth shut as much as possible. Long story short I cut more than a [I]few[I] times. I then met my boyfriend.. MY WONDERFUL boyfriend who has been everything to me so far. He really thinks I'm amazing. The problem is...I don't even love my own self. I've began to eat less calories. He loves my shape. I've always been blessed with hips,big bum,small waist and big boobs...but I feel like I'm too fat. I'm always bigger than my friends. I cant wear shorts because I have a big bum. I have to wear big shirts because my boobs are HUGE -_-. I'm just not happy and I'm trying to change it..I am. I cut last month and I relapsed because of a Custody thing with my Deadbeat dad and my Mother. I just don't know how long I can keep my scars a secret between me and my boyfriend. What if he sees and leaves me? If he never does..should I tell him? I know it would hurt him deeply to know I'm attempting to starve myself and I self-harm. I'm 15 years old and I'm going into the 11th grade next month. I'm scared...of what might happen if he sees or asks me about them. He's truly someone who doesn't make me want to cut anymore. It's just the scars leftover. Ha..Who would think 3 years ago I said I would never stop. I'm trying but Everything just seems to comeback. I feel bad that I cant..I CANT LOVE MYSELF OR SEE ANYTHING ABOUT ME..that he would want. I ask myself all the time..who wants a girl who doesn't love herself? He honestly takes my good with the bad. I just cant understand it :/