Quite the valid point. That's one of the reasons it's all so confusing.... To have these feelings that I have, but to know that, in the moment, given the issues at hand, I made the right choice to leave. I've often had a pattern of rationalizing his behavior for him... As I've done just now (ie; were it not for the PTSD, he may not have pulled the knife, thus, in leaving, I "abandoned" him). He has always felt I abandoned him.