{{{{{{{{{{{{Monica}}}}}}}}}}}}

You just go ahead and scream and cry all that you need to. Wow, I don't know what to say! I would think that it would be very hard to have to deal with this on your own. A supportive husband is worth his weight in gold. Other friends and family members would be important to give you some social support. One of the things you will need to do is come to terms with this spiritually, whatever that means to you. Churches also provide social support. Then, there is professional counseling too, and that might make it easier to process these very difficult feelings that you are working through. None of this will make it all better right now - it can take a long time, and even then it still won't be fair that this tragedy happened to you and your family. I'm glad that you found us. Stick around if we can do anything to help.

Wendy

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